I want to tell you about the story behind the healing for self-esteem for weight loss audio that I have just recorded.
I felt very guided to put the audio together and was told very clearly to perform the healing for the 20-year-old me, who was going through a really hard time and absolutely hated her body.
I’d grown up very sporty and quite slim. I’d not really thought about my body at all. But once I got to be 19 the problems really started. I was studying a language degree and had to spend a year abroad teaching English as a foreign language. My 6 months in Paris were fine, but Spain was a different story.
I was living in a small flat in Valladolid, a city north of Madrid, desperately homesick and I found every day a challenge, just to stay there. Each morning the yearning to go back home to my family was so strong. Yet I knew that if I went home, that would have been the end of my degree. So I learned to dig deep and find that extra bit of courage and strength to stay another day. Every day was that “one more day” and somehow I managed it.
But the way I managed to get through this very difficult time was to comfort eat. I returned home so much bigger that I am surprised my mother recognized her daughter at the station.
Every night after work, I would sit down with a loaf of delicious Spanish bread and a jar of apricot jam. I’d eat at least half of it in one sitting, really enjoying the first few bites, but then I just couldn’t stop. It’s not surprising that I gained so much weight.
I hated what I was doing to myself, but I was so unhappy I just didn’t care. I didn’t really care what I looked like on one level, even though deep down I was devastated that I’d turned into such a huge blob.
I look back now and realize that underpinning this unhappiness was a complete failure to value myself in any way. The thought of even liking myself was impossible to entertain, and I could never have even contemplated loving myself!
I spent about 3 years of my life being “a big girl.” (How I hated it when people said that) Even though I eventually lost the excess weight, whenever I was faced with a reflection of the slimmer me, I just couldn’t see anyone other than the fat girl.
Once I started to read inspirational books about self-esteem and put some of the ideas into practice, things started to shift for me. I was coming from a very dark place, and progress was slow, but I learned to listen to my inner self and understand when I was in trouble and needed help.
I now have a whole variety of coping mechanisms to deal with these doubts and fears when they arise and I no longer automatically reach for food. But the young me is still there inside me and I remember how she felt.
I love her and embrace her. She was part of me and now I love her better, hugging her whenever she needs a cuddle or some reassurance.
If this is you and you are struggling with your own self-image, then please don’t give up hope.
Strange as it may seem, the key to it all really is loving yourself.
The Angels really can support you and show you just how special you really are.
You can find the free audio here: http://lisadorey.com/the-angels-heal-self-esteem-for-weight-loss/